Sink or Swim

I laugh off a lot of things, some genuine some serene

But then I look at you and then I look at me

I look at all the things which make us feel complete

All the laughter in me makes my sky smile in green

Yellow, red and blue, whatever you like all through

All green in love, just like me.

I don't want to live, I've never wanted to feel safe

My mind ever feral and my choices run in crowdy places

I thought your presence couldn't change much

The thing that's subconscious cannot be touched

But I'm amazed you've erased that very thing in me

The will to think about it, you've never paid heed

How you touch my heart with all these things

And you ask me why I'd choose you over every other thing.

When you touch my hand, I believe there's nothing warmer than it

Cold pierces my bones but your touch shrouds my every other skin

It's been so long since I've written anything positive

Now I don't feel like it was ever lost inside of me.

You don't say much and I wouldn't want to ask for more

You as you are is more than enough for me

I always felt lost in this labyrinth of quiet responsibilities

Some speak no more and some scream louder than me

And how I tend to loose my mind when trapped in all of it

I pray to stay beside you the day this catches up to me

No one has ever seen me through it, all the silence-I've lived up to it

And I don't wish to make you see it, me with my barren land with a bright cover on it

I don't wish to make you feel what I feel like to die with it. 

But I know you are stronger than me

Pain cannot be compared, still you are the line for me

The limit, the boundary, the edge of everything

You don't own it, instead you are that soul of it.

Habitually, I name a lot of things

But surprisingly I don't have a name for you

What would you call someone who pulled you out of a mess inside you

I am so tangled in me and lost in a room

It's so cold and dark here that I've been numbed by it's cover

You wish to stay with me in this lonely winter

I wouldn't ever want to make you live that with me again

But all you wish is all I have to gain.