You can't die

 You sneaked up to me when I searched how to die

I was afraid you'd find out, i was afraid to lie
Your eyes seemed full of life and your smile so bright
The sun reflected your happiness but shadowed mine.

I can't say I never wanted to say goodbye
I've either been on tip toes or crawled my way to life
It's so unforgiving how can I survive
On few drops given and an ocean all dried.

I really want to give up, i still want to die
Damn there's no way better out of this sight
A crumpling body or a dying smile
Never knew death came in so many faces like lies.

You came to me and I said a weakened hi
I packed my bags and left the room as before
We played games and you talked to me normally
We both knew what was going on and what was supposed to be truly.

I met you while you were cycling on the pass beside
So bright and happy just like the yellow sunshine
I know fate is unforgiving but at least it shares
Some parts of me to you and yours to mine.

Some can never say out loud, some can never try
Your all black shirt and my past tries
You evade your eyes from my sight
And that's all the hint i need more to not try.

But I still walk all over my mistakes
I don't look back, i don't think twice
If life is such stubborn, I was born heartless by the time
We grow up, we shed our skins, that's all the reason we need to say goodbye.