Time

 People take death as a sentence but I have it as my plan B

All along since life moved on, never looking back, without me
My own self feels deluded in this world of hues in glee
How can someone expect me to be as sane as she?

But slowly my castle's crumbling now
Piece by piece the walls I built around myself are coming down
I can see the shore, and I can see someone standing there
Still before the calm and armed before the wave.

I shake off the rubble myself and step out of my snare
Through the sunlight changes, I'm slowly becoming someone I meant
Someone I barely knew, and someone I needed all along
I was changing colors to fade in the rainbow of my past
Remembering from the leftover corners of my heart
Where is the person I believed in, what was the name
Was it me all along or someone like you?

You standing at the edge with nothing in your arms
The cruel wave ready to wash all your cherished marks
But you stay until the night with hope in your eyes
Such admiration for future, something you built so bright
I stare at the admiration when I look into your eyes
No one like you in the crowd, no one like me any more wise.

How can you stay firm I wonder while I stare at my hands
All the crimes I committed, being bare handed witnessing the time
Slowly tick and take everything from me
I see that slipping out of your hands too but it's so much serene
When you hold it in your hands and you look at it like me
Your gaze turns things into some kind of silence I've never been in
Some dream like state I've always wished to be in
So white and green like the moss while snowing
All blue and grey like the winter in the morning.

Why didn't we meet before, I wonder with you and your crazy story
The same steps you were pushed off were once built in me
One difference which differs white from green
I myself jumped off it while you were hanging in.

It's okay it doesn't matter
I cannot breathe in an environment which I don't remember
You can't live with people you've known never
Attachment's a dangerous thing and I'm seriously so over it
If it was to latch over me again, I'd be killed before I know it
But since it's you, the pain maybe better
If not now, I really wish I had known you later.