One more time

 Can I afford to do it one more time?

The white butterflies I feel inside me grow with you like wine
All bitter in its being because that's all it has ever been to me
But like freedom in the end
Like being with you was all I could ever ask for me.

I've always made my choices on my own
But for the first time I've asked you to what I want
You bought that sugar spike, you got that thing in you
Breaking my bones to keep me in loop
And I would love to die in this feeling
To never feel anything ever again
Because if its not from you
It'll become a crime for me in the end.

How stupid this heart is if i ever ask for it
Ready to keep everyone together and keep going again
But this thing is so weird what I feel for you
Like I want to stay silent when I'm with you
I never want to shut up but when with your voice
Like something I genuinely understand is coming through
How can I bring my metal and clash this impending doom.

I always mistake you for someone else in the dark
My eyesight like buttons for faces in the stark
But wouldn't it be better if you let me know who they are
Where I'm walking, what I'll be leaving in the past
These steps with you feel like paces to me in my heart
Where you say you find yourself with me
With you, I realise myself to be a scar.

I'm afraid of telling you my true feelings
Like golden and yellow are two different things
You know, i know, but it isn't something discussed in serene
That's what I'm, left unscripted and totally incomplete
Because I take what comes and leave just like that
But since a long time you're someone I wouldn't want to forget.