kill

 Everyone told me to get separated from you,

But look at my broken heart,

it's so stubborn for you.

The moment you got insecure about your looks

Your colour and your tanned tunes,

Your curls were all binding me to you in the dark,

I had zero intention to call you out in front of everyone,

But that's just who I am when it comes to you.

So loud and unapologetic, I don't know where my uncaged self will take me,

Though I hope it takes me into the arms of someone like you,

Someone like you, if not you,

Because I am so lonely, I could eat my fingers away when I am alone,

Uncaged self and so unknown,

To myself, I am so alone.

That time when they told me to sing a song from three words,

I could only think how I could sneak you in my world,

And make it all yours, that time, that night,

Just to make it all yours.

You don't even notice me when I am around, and honestly I don't even care,

But sometimes when I sit with myself, your voice is all I hear,

You didn't walk along to drop me off, but you did to bade someone else,

What more proof do I need to clear it once and for all,

Just like that song I heard before my eyes met yours,

We were meant to be not made to last at all.

Delusion is such a crazy thing for once,

I remember being in places with you we never crossed,

How sickening if someone else reads my mind,

How rotten it is by my own crimes,

Dead memories of you I still touch to keep alive,

Never breathing your scent, just carbon dioxide.

I know I will go on, that's what I do when I remember you're not a friend of mine,

Because friends remember each other at times,

They touch and keep things alive,

Buried or burnt, or just ghosted to survive,

You never reached me to ever call yourself at least a friend of mine.

Though you're not even a friend, not even someone I could have something about to remember on,

We just happened to meet and I got lost in your eyes, that's all,

Lost in your eyes, that's all,

I've always been decisive and a companion of myself for years,

But just one look of yours and I forget who I am,

All that flower I garlanded for me,

And I forget who I am.