If i ever come back, i want to be back as you

 What if God told me you suffered the same as I reached the staircase

And held out an option of attires I could choose from
I would choose to be back as you in my other life
I wouldn't have chosen to do this another time
But it's you I am coming back as in time.
I probably won't remember this all,
But I'll get to live what you went through after all.

And I look out the window, taking in my breathy site
I was beautiful but how come I remember it all
You're feeling so happy and in delight
It could make flowers bloom like the midnight sky
And I feel your heart beating in my bones
I was to crash to the floor at the rhythm
But then I saw myself walking past my eyes
I felt my heart beating less than it could

We made up and we texted each other all night
You are tucked in you blanket, you're loved so right
You never lie to your parents, never lie to your mind
You picked out a pencil and drew my sight
I felt like I'll remember this forever in time
It's infinite what you felt for me, it's so fine
You put three perfect strokes and you pen the rest
Put it in your desk and wait for the dawn
Your eyes open as the ray it hits your lawn
And get out to shower, out to meet me.

When panting and puffing i reach the shore
I look around for your sight and there i was
My black hairs flowing in the wind like vines
I feel your heart slowing down, going calm in time
I feel my lips twisting to a gentle smile
And my mind feeling like it has never been here before.

But when you take a step towards me,
My eyes betray my split mind
You're suddenly angry and I just know why
I hugged another person, my lips on his
And you crushed the paper where my eyes twist
You threw it out to the ocean and I see myself flinch
I look around to find you and i take the hint
You sum up the courage to look me in the eye
But I feel this breaking bones, making me weak like lime.

You run back home and cry in your sheets
Your tears staining the blanket like paint on me
You run off the roof and you jump the length
Drown in yourself like you heights made you never scare
And I closed my eyes as I sit on these stairs
A tear drop falling as soon as this dream ends
And i open my eyes to see i am back
In your blankets and your room which is black
With hidden shadows and dimmed out lights
You're gone forever and I'm gone out of sight
My fingers curl into a fist, I hesitate a bit
Before I step off your window as I never got scared
Of heights and of lights, you were always there

If i came back as you, and you were there
I should never go back as someone you knew.