Hollow

I feel sorry sometimes that I love you to the full

Whatever my heart can bear, I give it all to you
Scratching the corners, the ecsectras left in the shadows
My heart feels sorry that I love you to hollow.

I had a piece of paper, a thing to write to you
My fingers hovering below my chin, my endless mood
I peak a glance at your sight, at your beautiful silhouette
And see all the stars and moon clustered into you

Today was important, today you came too
I wonder how many times I have counted your absence in the room
Your breath just sweet and sober, coming to me
Your voice like desserts singing, like rivers flowing beneath

Your voice reaches me first, your sight the second
I love you enough to let me know i am not paranoid for your presence
Your shadows and your smiles and your every little dance
It's dancing in my mind, moving waves in my heart

I hope to tell you someday, you're more than just my part
You're the paradise someone's looking for, some already missed apart
I want to look into your eyes and tell myself
Things I wouldn't want in my heart
Its such a curse to feel you right here.

I stare at you, taking in your beautiful sight
If I looked a bit more, I would choke on this endless fountain
I want to hear you sing, can you sing for me a bit?
I would like to tell you I'm a singer, a singer for your rain.

I don't want to forget you, don't want to remember you like the haley's comet
If only to ignite my soul, I want to burn in your fire beneath
You're orange, pink, red and yellow, all the hues mixed in one
You're just some so serene, so peaceful to my aching soul.
If only I could corner you to ask if you like me or not,
To put a finger on your chest to warn if it ever beats for another
There's nothing like this embarrassing shit I know that you do
You were never the love talk of the town but I wonder if someone who saw ever loves you.
Still.

I freeze when my mind makes book pairs of characters
And you fit with some another girl who's just too kind to be seen
But the protagonist's who seeks her and finds her shining like a diamond under clovers
She's all covered in mud but he pulls her closer
I shiver at the imagination if you'd be with some another one day
Why can't we grow up now and let me hold you in that way

Fuck it all its not true even in coming hundred years
I won't ever be yours because I'm walking under ironic clouds
I'm destroyed and ugly and unkind in the meanest way
You're perfect and beautiful and a gentleman, they always say.

The catchlights in your eyes when you rarely talk to me
I could stare at them forever and never get bored by the stream
You're so beautiful it kills me sometimes, like some figures are dancing in those lights
And taking steps and twisting feets, in a metaphor to tell you don't belong to me.

And all there's left is this hollow heart inside a rusted ribcage
A beating heart for a lost love maze
There lies a childish vain, a longing foreseen miles apart
A hollow heart with so much love that its grief after all.