Why

 Why can't I put you out of my head

Why can't I sideline you while I process my mess
I'm the one begging you to leave
While you should be the one asking me to please.

Why is it always that I'm the one left hanging
Doubling up over every conversation strangling
Your words echo in my mind like haunted melodies
I'm such a pure thing, I'm so serene why can't you see

Why can't you see my love for you
Why we couldn't be something I had thought of every noon
The moon and stars fucking collide to create a night sky
We stay under and look at the same, but you're not asking me why.

Why can't I stay next to you
While you sing me a song we could've sung for the moon
My long hairs in your fingers and my eyes searching yours
I'm such a young girl but having thoughts like scars.

Why can't we be a real thing in line
Why can't I feel your breath against mine
When will you kiss me and not her pink lips
When will she stop asking me what am I

Why is it thick, why is it called suffering
Why am I drowning and why can't I breathe
When I thought you were my salvation, my eternal ending
When I thought you were my star, my pocket melody.

Why is it that it cannot end for me
Why do I lack in lacking feelings for your therapy
Why am I bottling everything up like its heaven's honey
When I am sugar-coated poisoned, I am tongue tied by the savory.

Why are you still here, what is this meant to be
There was a strange connection but I thought we had passed it
I thought I was done with universe's lesson of not having everything I want
When I put a finger and it reveals to be my broken gut.

Why are you still staring at me,
Why am I so invisible to your heart
Why am I like this, like that and not something you could love
God why did I have to meet you after all that I've done.

8march25