parasite

 Saying sorry was one way

And my endless talks the other
How long am I gonna lie to you
Lie to myself the other.

Everytime I step forward
Her thoughts take me back
Two steps at a time
But four steps back again
Again and again until her voice is
All that echoes in my mind
How she's so in love with you and
How I am not so kind.

My hands tempt me to touch you
Mould into something of mine
When I look in the mirror and see my scars
I wish you've the same with the similar lines
At one moment you are everything to me
Another, you're just another crime
I commit and bloody my hands
I smear them over my face
I look in the mirror and there I see
The person I am and someone I'm meant to be.

This love is alive, its breathing inside of me
Thinking of parting from you kills something in me
I feel like choking on thin air, my hands behind my back
Your face on the white walls and your voice in my head
This is mad and it feels forever for me
Its like a parasite, it's so free and unseen.

I've changed myself
I've changed my mind
I'm gonna love you regardless
What's written in fate of mine
I told you we are meant to be
And I believe we've time
If we not so soon or near
I believe we've still time.

So I'll keep lying to you
I'll keep pretending to be someone I am not
Because I know I'm not benevolent, I'm not skinny
I'm not sure of my own insanity
But when it comes to you everything feels complete
Even if I am in pieces, you make every piece breathe
So with you I see the light and its burning warmth
Inside its core just a burning star
Just like my love for you, dying but bright
It'll disappear but we still have time.