Closure in a blizzard

 "You must be Eirlys, right?I'm Ben, nice to meet you."

I would look up at your eyes
They'll remind me I've been here too.

The place seems familiar
Under your sky
You don't remember me
But i remember your goodbye.

Maybe this is the last time
We get to meet like this
But why am I the only one
Holding our memories.

Guess it was a storm trapped in silence
My feet got lost in the forest
A rustle from there, a sting right here
I kept walking until I found the crest.
You'll sit at your bench, unaware of it all
My hands will know, my heart will fear.

In italics I write your name in my book
You won't notice until you borrow it
Can you scream my name? I could've told you
But you didn't look my way, you went away.

You wave at me, to get my attention
You ask me if I play in the band
I'll nod and notice the same catchlights
Dancing but I know the steps this time.

I'll smile at you and tilt my head
Mock you for not knowing it
I'll tell you this and share some secrets
You'll be glad for me, my presence.

I'll make Jade jealous for choosing the wrong guy
She's so dumb, she can't see, our fate is intertwined
I know I love you, I know my heart lies to me
I know this will end, this time I won't let you be.

The day comes where I confess it to you
I held back this time and said it was someone else
You laughed and said you could convince them in a flick
I laughed and said if it was so easy, why wasn't it already real

You'll stare me in the eye and tilt your head
Mock me in my face and tell me secrets
We'll be good friends for long, my heart caged
When the day comes to say goodbye, I'll wave.

You won't look back, you don't care
You'll choose yourself over and over again
Jade may not be by your said, you were alone
I thought you wouldn't look back
I thought you wouldn't care.

But in came a ring on my doorstep
Ten years after, I see your face
I smile because my heart knows
I've lived it twice, my heart knows.

But you step forward and I don't move
You take my hand and whisper a secret
I know your name, know your lies
I don't know myself but I've lived you twice.

You'll hold my hand a little longer
The snow falling behind a little stronger
Some chill in the air but a mist between our breath
I've ruined it all but at least you're here.

A big part of my life, a chapter I've long closed
Who could be so dumb to keep going on and on
Walking alone, in storms, in rain, in a blizzard
All alone, shivering like a fool.

But you're here, and you've been here before
I see your foot marks and your habitual walk
You'll gaze in my eyes, not for long
You'll leave me alone but a note in my arms.

It crinkled as I opened, a snowflake marking the start
You said "its over, a new start"
I look back at you and you're gone
What does it mean, what do you want.

You'll never answer, I'll never know
But we'll both nod in unison before
A long loved memory, a brushed open core
A heart pierced through me
But you held the notes.