night

 'The party was fun, right?' I said happily as i looked down to the wristwatch to check the time. 'Gosh, it is so late. I don't think i can catch enough hours of sleep until the morning.' My brows furrowed in worry but the small smile on my face was a relieving medicine to my agonizing chest.

'Can't you take the day off tomorrow?' He asked, his voice low as his hands slipped into mine taking off from the dimmed glass of watch. 

After the party, we were walking back to our car, and so we are in the parking lot right now. No one is here, just us as the light are low and it is late night. Plus, we are late too. 

I looked up into his eyes and smiled. My eyes may have lit up from the warmth of his hands as the slight grin from his face faded. My heart seemed to back away from the sight of his glaring eyes. 

'I can't It's an important day tomorrow for me.' I stuttered as i took to refuse his call, and somehow my bones felt afraid of the heat.

'Am i not important?' He stopped in his tracks and faced me, but my head was down and i looked away then. My mind was racing on the sudden instinct about why i wanted to be away from him. Something was wrong in the air but it was just that my fingers couldn't sense it.

'It's not that.' I glanced to my right hand on his palm. It looked so small against his that i thought he could crush it right the moment. My vulnerable veins started flushing my face as he spoke coming closer.

'I guess it is.' A small smile lingered his face as he breathed out. I looked in his eyes and for a moment i thought he was not someone i knew. But i know him, i know him. I told myself.

'We cannot do anything about it, right? I have such a job. I feel sorry that i don't have much time for you'. I stare in his eyes which are already digging into mine. He steps backward a bit before sly smirk glows on his face.

'Then i should be the one to catch you.' His voice sounds loud and clear and i voluntarily step back. 

'What are you doing?' Worry is painting on my face but he starts chuckling. 

'Catching you of course.' 

I quickly started running away seeing his way. 

'Ah, why?' I started laughing loudly and my giggles echoed in the walls of the parking lot. I could hear his heavy footsteps running after me and my heart raced at the sound. I kept changing my ways in between the walls and somehow he could still finely chase after me. I looked back once and twice and there was a big wide laughing smile on his face. I wonder if this night is the one i will want for forever. I was never into running since my childhood since i always get caught but today it feels like he is re-awakening my childhood fears and pleasures. 

I take one sharp turn to the left and hide behind a big car. I hear his footsteps a bit late after me and could feel the muffled beats going to the other direction. I was panting so hard i had to keep a hand on my mouth to cover my fast breaths. I for sure knew his mischievous side but i am surprised I didn't know this childish skin of him. 

I couldn't catch for how long i stayed like this, crouching down behind the car, in the shadows. I didn't hear him coming. I was more afraid of him than the game we were playing. I don't like to lose anyway. 

I take a peek outside, he was nowhere. I get up and turn my head in every direction. When i was sure he wasn't around, i got out my spot and walked silently leaning on the wall. I realized i was afraid of the dark just now looking at the dark night sky outside the lot, hanging above like my worst nightmares. I am not scared, just afraid it may fall anytime soon. 

Just when i realized i got lost in the dark blanket, a hand took on my waist and pinned me to the wall. My mouth opened in a loud gasp but his hands shut it swiftly. There was a wide smile on his face as we stared into each other's eyes for longer than supposed to in the wake of him finding me. 

At the moment i felt somewhere in my heart that some strings were being pulled which i never knew were binding my heart. I have felt some things for him when i met him and since i have been alone after the death of every loved ones of mine, my trust in love had died long ago. I guess some day a moment for sure will come where we are forced to believe in things we long lost our faith in.

 His eyes are boring into mine and i don't feel anything but just his eyes watching me. Like the way he takes out time, something i consider so precious and forgotten most by everyone, to stare into my eyes like i am the most beautiful sunset he has ever seen. We have been together since last year, working and meeting just at home. We share nothing but just a sense that someone is with us in this dark world, that we are maybe not alone. But i am not afraid of being alone, i just, i guess, need a hand to tell me sometimes that it will all be alright soon. 

Feeling the weight of all these thoughts, i hug him, and i felt like it has been decades since i have hugged someone by my own will of losing them someday. My mind has been going over this 'losing' word and it is just that i was never afraid of anything before, but it feels vulnerable to me now that i am.

'Please don't ever leave me. Say you won't.' I breath across his soft chest, as his heart also beats in a gaze for he realized i hugged him.

'I won't.' He replies. His hands run through my hair, patting it close to his neck. We stayed like this for hours.