Doughnut

 I stood beside the railing, looking at the beautiful sun melting down like the varied flavor splashes on my hot doughnut right now. I bite at the side and wait for the taste to melt in my mouth now. It feels good, like life is getting just a little better every day...

'every minute..' i found myself mumbling out the words when-

CRASH!-and my doughnut fell onto the cascading grass down the deep trough before me, down the railing. I pierced at the doughnut, my heart getting hollow every second, tumbling down the deep grassy path and into the black void now downing upon the ambience as the sun hid behind the horizon the moment. 

My mouth fell open at the breaking site and I quickly closed it shut to brutally face the person who crashed into me at the so right moment of my already damned life. 

I met his eyes as he clutched onto his head with his hand, in this situation looking painfully out of a perfect anime movie, but as if i was some big built boulder on his god-knows where way or say to-make-my-doughnut-helplessly-tumble-down-the trough way. 

I clenched my fist and was about to point a finger on his face in argument when-

'I am not going to apologize for this. Ask it from the red shirt guy' he pointed at the now running person away, 'as he pushed me onto you, accidentally or purposely, I don't know. Also the latter for you or him either.' And he ran away without looking once back. 

I stood at the railing now, looking for the deep pitted some box of feeling in me to surge up in my brain and make me cry but no tears come out of my long hour dired eyes. I want to cry. I haven't cried in weeks, or say months or years. Not even when things were turning upside down, i was badly broke once, or when I traveled on foot for one whole day looking for a place to stay in this city. 

And now when this some impossible anime-assumed guy has tripped my doughnut over a place I bet no has ever set foot in, no tears. No damn tears. Nothing. I sometimes don't understand what I am doing with my life that I am not able to feel any emotions now. 

I look back at the horizon, shadowed with hues of dark colors in the night sky, and let my heart calm down to avoid the tricks my mind is playing on me now. I take a deep breath, exhale out, turn around and move to the same doughnut shop i bought my previous one from.